FEEL

Was yumcharing together with Ah Loong tonight. He shared this funny story.

He have this girl staff in his bridal shop ( family business ). And this girl got a boyfriend. For the first few weeks (or months i forgot), the boyfriend will drive his car and going a few circles around the bridal shop area after sending the girlfriend to work..

When asked why do he do that ?

"i drive rounding around your shop, so that you will FEEL that im guarding and protecting you"

WTF....... ?????

8

8 met
on a heart shape day
2 were my old's
the rest are new

from planned sushi
to a waited more than an hour
but food never arrived cafe
to a dim sum restaurant

thought was a one night stop
ended up almost every weekend
every other day
for sure every wednesday

different backgrounds
funny stories
fresh characters
balance gender
caring and laughter

funnyhow it all connected
despite the connected area
and the circle is growing out 8
where were they before this ?
where were i before this ?
how were we before this ?

Connect - disconnect - reconnect

make believe.

Hgih

After few days practises, finally managed to jump and play and sing with my GRX40, hanging as low as till below my waist..looks so much cooler ! wuahahahaha.. now i need a mic stand ..!

Realtek sound card not nice lehh..i want back my VIA... !!!! @#$!%!$!#@!

Jammin Jammin Jammin ... can't wait... !

9 more picture messages in 4 days time..shit shit shit !!

Banyak ammendments...die die die !

life getting back to ol' batman...ooo..not very good le !

Parents cold war ends... finally mannnn !

air cond filter changeddd ... i get cold now !!

Washed my car after the rain ...so please don't rain !

3000km passed service point ..how how...shit..i gonna kena from my dad later...

hey hey..you must be sleeping, waiting for your reply ...hope you get the job yea !!

Ooh oohh..another Flash again...makan makan...thanks thanks !

Sorry ah the recent face for Jusco Aeon model, sure you must be dissappointed leh..hope to see you soon anyway..hehehe !

Zeon Zeon Zeon...so headache ....Ganozhi Ganozhi ... waiting for your positive reply

SRC cepat call back when cik Jan is not around !! im busy leh..hahahaha..jk !

I threw away burned back work cd ! lucky Jo is still around !!

Pass pass goal tomolo .. yeah
drop shot smash after tomolo.. yeah

Ice Age 2 .. yeah !

Genting..come come...! but don't get fooled on the day !

The N times he borrowed 50 bucks from me unreturned...haha..but its alrite...500, 5000 bucks or more also i will borrow or help , coz i will always love him !

k....time to sleep..1000000% will be waken up by 0122248512 tomolo ! hahahahaa...:)


Good morning everyone !!! thanks for readin my bullshit..im a zombie jorrrr...shit..hungry...dun care la..not the first time....nite. nite.

Song For Sale

Finally after one week...my PC is rebornnnn...

Thought was the RAM problem..but after finally brought over for checking..the harddisk was ok, but its my motherboard problem..sudah almost gone burst. Must be overheat or something, coz the chips all look like sudah kembangg..like almost gonna burst like that...luckily i brought it over for service in time..else..i really dunno what will happened next..

Changed my motherboard and finally everything is up working again. Running on 768 now, 256mb faster than my previous speed. But my old 512MB ram will be coming back soon :) coz previously i thought was my RAM spoilt, so i brought in for a change, ( FYI, Kingston RAM got lifetime warranty ), and the computer guy, which is my bro's friend, was kind enough to borrow me a 256 RAM for temporary use. So..imagine i've been running on 256 for the past 1 week...really slow lor...one Photoshop and one Illustrator application enough to make my computer freeze...hahaha..

I bought a new 512 Kingston RAM. Together with the friend's 256RAM, running on 768 now. Hopefully my old 512 RAM will be back by next week, so i can run on 1 GIG RAM, after returning the 256..i sounds a bit jakun, coz i know memang alot of people have been running on 1 gig RAM or more for some times..hahahaha...

Sometimes...money can save you some problems and makes your life easier..hahaha..or like Frisha said, bring happiness to your pc..hahahaha..

Hit my walkman record button, and recorded this one song live just like that, spontaneously, on the spot just like that..hahaa, during the time when my pc cant even boot. No drums and bass, so just acoustic..song for sale....

http://www.i-bands.net/audiovault/bands/1444/music.php

support support a bit..ahhahahaa

Blue Screen

aiyooo..please laa..enough of blue screen jorrrrr....
leave me alone for a while...
let me finished up my work for tomorrow's deadline at least...
be good to me lah...tolong tolonggg...


my RAM is giving me problem. Besides, i think my almost 3 years old desktop is ..old.

Thinking of the money i need to spend to upgrade my stuffs...

duhhhh...of all the time but this time !

The god must be playing with me ! else the god must be crazyy..hahaha..

McD Queue

Sunday. Dropped by for McD before 9:25pm Underworld...

beratur-ing. a voice from behind
stranger : you see, the queue is long but you don't complaint. At home, you are hungry..you shout heyy..where is dinner ? how long more ??

me :(turn around to see this 30s indian guy)..hehe..
me : ( find it rude to be quiet) well.. So... where's your wife ?

He pointed to the his wife who is queuing up on the other line. Actually the queue wasn't that long to start with, im next after this girl in front of me..

me : oohh..family day huh ?
stranger : yea..happy day !( cheeky smile )

i think he heard me wrongly..hahahaha..

stranger : so you see, the thing now is everyone is nicely queueing up and no one grumbles, but at home you blame when dinner is not ready yet..why did it take so long, isnt it ?

me : ( its like the same question repeated again..how? how?..) eerr..well..at home you get to rest nicely on your comfy sofa and wait, here you have to stand and wait maybe..

stranger : hhmm hhmm...( cheeky smile )

me : smile back ( FUCK..i dunno what am i talking about also..wuahahahahhaaa...)

Lucky its my turn to order...

stranger : so this is your supper ?
me : eerr..dinner actually
stranger : oohh..

(silent)... it supposed to be actually from the start !

me : have a nice day sir
stranger : enjoy your meal ( looking at my ordered food all the while )

Funny encounter again..hahaha...

Sunday Morning Bluesss

"Told you before, nothing is 永远或是你想它怎样它就会如你所要得那样！！ 也告诉过你，没有人会记得你所做过或所付出过的。每一个人都只会记得你所犯过的错，但你的好，只有自己懂。。。每一个人都有自己该走的路，当他们选择了自己的道路，就不会想再回头想起从前了，只有那些不能前进的人才会永远在原地踏步，还在怀念从前。记得，爱你该爱的人而不是逼人家听你的一切。不要强求，也不要为此不开心！！ 好好过个充实的生活吧。。。。。"

quote this from a friend's friendster blog comment post.

Sometimes, or many times, i try to prove the phrase above incorrect, or not neccessary...but after a few rounds, i admitted. People do changed. Be it for better or worse.

I find myself moved on too fast. Sometimes i wondered, was it me moving on too fast or im forced to move on. Funny how people connect, disconnect and reconnect. Everything takes both side to work, if the chemistry is not there anymore, its not there anymore then :) the more you try to make it happen, the more you are faking it.

Things are always like that. Sometimes you know you are happy, and sometimes you know you can be happier. Try to find your best ways to ease and cheer yourself up when you are unhappy, try to take a step back and look and everything will be okay. Just try your best and the rest will be destined.

I tend to get things that i don't really want, or need. Be it attention, affection, caring, friendship, sex, work, business etc.I back out when i face these. But things that i really wanted is always not in my luck..hahahaha... I can't make everyone else satisfied, i can't make everyone to enjoy what i like, and i don't plan to also. I am mine..hahahahaha

Life is soooo short....you search, you wait, you found, you lost, you get, you fail, you fall, you tried, you enjoyed, you been through, you believe, you knew, you forget, you hate, you pissed, you fucked, you earn, you learn, you trust, you were....

Glimpse of Horror and Hope

17 march. My PC ...crashed...all my stuffs since melbourne...gone...

You see, shit happens. I always know that. I even had a small little signboard i bought from Melbourne written "shit happens" ..and it always happened on the most unexpected time, the very time that you fucking dunwan it to happen.

I need to hand up 2 projects by the next day when this happened, and was totally devastated. The selected working files were all corrupted.. Try to format my pc and my RAM just chose to spoilt on the same time..formatting were corrupted halfway..cant even boot.I felt like crying..almost wanted, but then i felt stupid. I left everything there just like that, planning to go out for a break, get a beer, or maybe get myself drunk, not wanting to think about anything anything....

Was on my way out when i got a call. We talked...blurted out all our problems and situations...i felt much better.. Was still driving and wandering around when my fatty called, offering to help. I feel relieved. Then my bro called, or i called him, i forgot. And he offered to help with my crashed harddisk.

My bro came back earlier just to help out. Spent the whole night analysing and operating the whole CPU, asking for help from his friend from time to time. Finally i see the glimpse of hope when all my files are recovered. It was almost 3 by then. Went over to fatty's place and relieved to find out the work half done. We worked till morning and managed to get everything in time for submission.

So..i didn't get myself a break that night..haha

Am using my bro's laptop now as my pc is still in "operation".

Thanks dude for the call ya. You know who you are :)
Thanks fatty who helped so much, but then you memang should..hahaha :)
Thanks alot to my lil bro who helped me so much when i fucking need a help. I know that "chee cheong fun" is not enough to show my appreciation..hehehe :)

Rich

Today i met a "fortune teller" by coincidence..or rather they planned it.
She looked at me, concentrated stare..kinda ..hhmm..scary..well, i didn't know she knows how to fortune tell until in the end.

She said quite alot. Quite true some of them..hahaa..But i like her first phrase.
"you know, you will be rich by the age of 27"

That made my day..wuahahhahaa..

She taught us quite some ways of face-telling.But this is the only one i remembered. Put ur 2nd and 3rd fingers in between ur eyebrows..if it fits nicely 2 fingers in between, you are usually destined to be rich.

Faster go try that !!!!! hahahahahahaha...and don't blame me if it doesnt !

think too much

Quite alot of good things happened these days, these weeks..this year tilll now..

Learned a lot, heard alot, made quite some new friends, made some deals, got some jobs, found vocalist, found my passion ...all is good, yea..its all good.

But yet..something is missing, Slowly seeing the distance and difference from them, maybe it was a mistake i guessed, after all.

I miss them, i dunno if they do, maybe they don't. Don't really blame also. Friendship takes 2 sides to clap.

Maybe this will carry on and will slowly faded off from my mind, maybe i will be happier, maybe they do to.

Maybe im still that sensitive and emotional guy like said. I don't deny, but i learnt.

Sometimes i wonder, where do i belong ?

Maybe life is like that..maybe i think too much again.

Blur

why do you call someone blur ...a blur sotong ???

give me 10 reasons !!! hahahaa..

Lost in Translation

Was doing a leaflet first in English, then the BM version. While doing the admendments...come across these words that was so weird and funny after translation...but thats what the client edited ! hahahaha..! or maybe my BM really jakun..hhaha

ongoing assessment - latih tubi
notepad - pad nota
website links - pautan laman web
BestariEd Online - BestariEd Atas Talian ( WTF !! )
Minimum System Requirement / Server - Keperluan Sistem Minima / Pelayan ( hahahahahahhaa..)

have a great day everyone !

dong dong

it was kinda scary at first sight
i think everyone noticed but no one bring it up
but someone did in the end

sure it must be painful and suffering for you
to go through this shit no one have to
no longer we get your calls for a drink
i don't know what are you thinking

I bet you feel this is unfair
people like me doing it everyday but still ok
maybe one day i will face the consequences

sigh...
imagine how long more our road in this life
appearance is not all although it does matters
sometimes and maybe all the time
but somehow people will get use to it
people accepted it and cool with it

take your time
but hope you will come back soon :)

Zhap Fan

finally she talked to me..
it has been just that sweet caring smile for the past weeks
suddenly i dunno what to say to her but just smile back
"kuk fa yit hai mai ? " ( chysanthemum hot rite ?)
nodded nodded

not the first time anyway..
I remembered she told me before
quiet boy attract people's attention

izzit true ?
ahhahahaha...

That Friday

Why must you remind me how i felt that day
why must you remind me what i expected that day

why must you remind everyone about that day !!!!!!!!!!!!

why must you make me feel a sharp needle penetrating my weak heart
why must you remind me what i am who i am
why must you push the blame to everyone
why must you...

I just want something very simple on that Friday. But i didn't got it...
maybe my treat wasn't worth it
maybe I don't worth it

i forgot that day
Now i remembered
Now i want to forget that day again

You spoilt my day.
I hate this feeling.

Damn

Mounting Room

please keep this door close"
a sense of cold
a sense of alone

green green green everywhere
squarish art board everywhere
cutted unused papers anywhere

push up tick push up tock push up tick again
that was the sound of my cutter
place my art nicely and slice
does the green feels the pain ?
slice cut slice cut

look down and around for the black card
lucky enough u find one nicely cut

prepare the art
spray spray spray
don't try to breath
else you will suffocate

place your art on the black card
no time to measure you just paste
look at the whole and make sure it looks great
else you will come back again and complaint

fight for fish

fight for fish ?

oh dear fish, there are many ways to cook a fish. But just knowing how to cook is not enough woh, have you tried eaten it before ?i bet you longed for it.

You don't have to tell me how you think it will taste like, coz i have tasted it, others might have to, but not you. Don't you realised it ?

Tell me if you get to taste it. I will tell you how it tasted like before..hahahahahaa

100

nice to be pamper
nice to be taken care
nice to be told
nice to be a part of it

Not nice to hear scandals
Not nice when its from two side
Not nice when you are the messenger
Not nice when you have to bear to listen
Not nice when you see the bad sides of it

Nice when it comes to proposal
Not nice when you have to take risk
Not nice when you it comes to money
but i have to think for my own company
am i being lucky or unlucky

Life is about an act
She taught me that
but she taught me too much
and she told me too much
how am i gonna deal with this
how am i gonna open my mouth

i hope she understand business is business
i hope she understand personal is personal
im gonna tell her

100

Saturday Morning

Stoning in the jam
thinking where to go
she msged on the right time
and thus we headed date

a tap on the shoulder
yes its a friend i should have know
which i never get the chance to know
guessing left telling right
final guess you never know

It feels weird at first
but i dunno about her
drinking beer getting closer
i know what she wants but im hiding
i sent her off saying im sleepy
i did nothing wrong so i shouldn't be guilty
i went back in everything change already
it was a night to remember really


I met her back after 10 years
no more the tomboy but an angel now
her smile. it tickles me.
how she reminds me of one of my crushes
alot better actually. Alot.
but unfortunately she is taken
this is how things always happens

one two three four makes me feels like a pimp
i hope Aldy is around so i dun feel like an extinct spesis
all are new friends but more like very old friends
nice to know everyone still remembers klang

flirting is not new to me
but it feels weird with you flirting with me
like as you trying to hint me something
one wrong step i know everyone gets hurt
ask me something and im still taking it
seems like im adding more oil to the fire

ha ha is the first reaction when i heard it from them
seems like its not only me feeling that way
making drama stories faking intention
what they said was funny but maybe its right
hang urself to dead and you will get all your attention

I hope to see you smile
but it don't have to be for me
it was a past but still i remember
it feels one kind knowing your trouble
i hope they wont bothers you too much
i hope you will smile on the phone

Suddenly everything seems like a puzzle
everyone telling everyone different scandals
everyone knows everyone but not everyone

today i found another place of fun
a friend to rely and a place of ease

He took a step back and look
everything seems so clear now
He no longer keep asking why
coz he thought he knows
or maybe he choose just not to bother
maybe he bother but he pretend dun care
it was easier actually
to just be the one watching

when you want something badly
it turns out deadly
when you let it go and get your life on
it comes back to you just like this
like this is better like that

adik pergi mana is the last thing i remember on my way home
cant the police sees that im tooo sober to be driving
when will someone at least call me abang or mr

hahahaha...ok...im high...not drunk k ! and i need to work on blardyyy SUndayyyy..potong stimm betul !!!

V'day

oh..shit..
things happens when you never thought it wil be
whats happening now
is something that i never thought will ever happened to me
and it is happening now..

Several different incoming numbers
it was the same person
Several flirting on the phone
it was fun and new

Now a present on my table
oh i got a present on valentine's day !
unwrap to be something that i told her yesterday
surprises me yet makes me feel guilty

too straight forward makes me think
different race culture makes me step back

should i play along with the game now ?

ask myself..i know...
ask myself..i know...

well...HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE DAY to everyone !!!!